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Friday, March 30, 2018

365 days without you

On my college graduation day ten years ago, my dad was there to cheer me on as I received my diploma. And I'll never forget how touched he was by the words of our convocation speaker, Maya Angelou.

At his funeral, I read a poem by Maya Angelou that not only captured what I was feeling in losing my dad, but also one I know he would have loved.

Yesterday marked 365 days without you, Daddy, and I hold on to every whisper of you. I look forward to when peace blooms.

When Great Trees Fall


by Maya Angelou

When great trees fall,
rocks on distant hills shudder,
lions hunker down
in tall grasses,
and even elephants
lumber after safety.



When great trees fall
in forests,
small things recoil into silence,
their senses
eroded beyond fear.



When great souls die,
the air around us becomes
light, rare, sterile.
We breathe, briefly.
Our eyes, briefly,
see with
a hurtful clarity.
Our memory, suddenly sharpened,
examines,
gnaws on kind words
unsaid,
promised walks
never taken.

Great souls die and
our reality, bound to
them, takes leave of us.
Our souls,
dependent upon their
nurture,
now shrink, wizened.
Our minds, formed
and informed by their
radiance,fall away.
We are not so much maddened
as reduced to the unutterable ignoranceof
dark, cold
caves.



And when great souls die,
after a period peace blooms,
slowly and always
irregularly. Spaces fill
with a kind of
soothing electric vibration.
Our senses, restored, never
to be the same, whisper to us.
They existed. They existed.
We can be. Be and be
better. For they existed.